Sumtimes juz I feel so upset.. I was thinking how cum Amanda.. Jiamin and Sebas have so much frenz ard them.. Unlike me.. And when it's a weekend and everyone of them is going out roaming ard.. Yet I'm the only one staying at home doing nothing.. Waiting and waiting duno for what.. It's juz like being jailed.. I reali hate this.. I knw I can go out.. But.. Haix.. =/

As time passes by.. Everyone will be having their own life.. It juz happened when I met one of my lecturer a couple of days ago.. When I told him that I might not be getting married at the end of the day..

The dialogue btwn him and me..
Sir: Spencer.. U knw it's not easy to becum a bachelor..
Me: But Sir.. That wun be a problem since I wun be buying house and all that mah..
Me: I probably have enuff financial power to support myself mah..
Sir: Though the financial aspect might not be a problem for u but what abt the emotional aspect?

When he told me that.. I juz hit me somehow.. Why I din realized this before?

Sir: Though currently ur frenz are either of same age or younger than u..
Sir: But when they get older and it means u will be older too..
Sir: Den it's abt time for them to get married and build their family..
Sir: They probably wun have much time to go out with u anymore..

I remained in silent and pondered a while..

Sir: I married my wife in the early 30s..
Sir: I think that's the best and ideal age..
Me: But that wun apply to me..
Sir: Spencer.. There things that are alreadi laid for u by God..
Sir: It will cum when the time is rite..
Me: Hmmx..
Sir: Trust me.. Focus on ur career now.. And move on later..

Now I understand why it's always a fortunate thing to tok to someone who is much more older than me.. Becuz they went thru such stages alreadi.. That's why they understand.. Such advices are so precious that I will embed it deep within my mind..

The time has comes..
I know what is best for you..
I know where I should be standing right now..
And I know how much I actually likes ya..
I know we can never be together..
But I want ya to know..
Ya are special to me..
Be it now or future..

*MerQu|s3*^^ aka *yeKai*^^